Time is my Greatest Enemy

A good representation about how I feel about group projects in school. I have two of them going on now. One is for English. We're going to have a debate on Monday and our group was given a topic. We're being strictly timed so we need to figure out who says what and when. We haven't made an effort to meet outside of class and I'm not even sure what they want me to do. I'll see them again before class tomorrow if they all show up early enough. We need to figure this out. At least I got a 99% on my essay.

I have much more time for my CPD project. Instead of teamwork, my group is all making their own video and we're just going to show all 3 videos and like a couple of powerpoint slides to introduce each one. Hopefully we don't get too heavily marked down for that, if at all.

I have two psychology chapters due this week. One's due today and I did it yesterday. The other is due Thursday and I'll probably start it tomorrow or maybe tonight since it's really long. My math midterm is Friday. I started the practice midterm. The problems I've done so far I know how to do, but I'm never confident with my answers. What if I screw it up and get mostly wrong answers on all of them because I mess up some step? Then I'll just fail the class and screw up my schedule for next semester.

Yesterday was the first day of early registration, so I signed up for my classes. I had too boot out one class because it had picky requirements. So on M/W/F I'll have back to back sociology, philosophy, and then math. The next math class after the one I'm taking now. Which I really do hope I'll pass. I have an 84% in there and we're halfway through the semester... there are a lot of people in there who are doing a lot worse. So maybe I'll pass. And my only Tuesday/Thursday class next semester will be Mythology. With Callahan. My mom had Callahan for her English 102 class when she was pregnant with me. This woman's English class gave me inner-uterine headaches! Apparently she's a hard teacher, but I want to take mythology, so whatever. 

I started rewatching Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica. The rewatch value is amazing. That show is so brilliant. But recently I've noticed that I'm upset because I have so many things I want to be able to do in my little freetime and I can't do all of them... I want to watch shows (like Madoka, Desperate Housewives, Project Runway, etc), play Pokemon, watch movies that I love, read, play video games... there's not enough time to do everything I want and it upsets me and I don't know why. I want to watch old movies I haven't seen in years. Balto, Homeward Bound, The Iron Giant, Ferngully, Fox and the Hound... and I've never seen Oliver and Company, so I want to watch that. But where's the time?

Cops, Paramedics, and Bacon Cheeseburgers

You know what sucks? Locking your keys in your car. You know who did that today? Me. It wasn't a big deal, though. Grandma picked me up after my CPD class and took me home, where I got the spare key. Then she drove me back to school and I unlocked my car and we went back to her and mom's house. 

I offered to help her with errands she needed to run. Just as we were leaving, some kid on the phone ran up to mom's office. Mom wasn't in there because she had just left to clean out a vacant unit or something. We tried to tell him that, but he didn't speak much English, so he ignored us. Right when we were about to turn onto 67th, a cop car pulled up, but had to stop at the gate. He couldn't get in because he didn't have a code. I guess the kid was trying to find mom because he wanted to try to tell her to open the gates for when the cops he had called came. So I told grandma to wait, and then I jumped out of the car and ran over to the cop car. I offered to use my gate code to open it for him so he could go through. So he said, "That would be great, thank you." And I did. Then me and grandma found mom and told her the cops were there for some reason, and left. Later we found out that two ladies (the kids' mom and aunt) were arguing over the contents of a storage unit or something and had called the cops. 

Later at Wal Mart, me and grandma were leaving, and some person had collapsed so the paramedics were suddenly there. It was kind of awkward to inch around them and get out of the parking lot with that ambulance in front of the Wal Mart. I'm surprised there wasn't a fire we got to witness on top of all this! We did see a firetruck. But that's not really a special occasion. And of course, I ate a bacon cheeseburger for lunch. Otherwise, my title wouldn't make sense.

I'm kind of understanding math I guess. I have a psychology test tomorrow. I've had this headache all day that won't go away. I took a short nap, and it helped refresh me enough to do my psychology homework, but did nothing for the damn headache.

The Halfway Mark

I'm so happy that I got my essay done and printed in Friday. Yesterday and today have been great and well-deserved relaxation days. I'm happy that I just get to turn in this essay tomorrow and be done with it. That leaves only one essay left... of course, it has to be twice as long as the essays we've already written, but it's just one more essay. I wonder what it will be on? I guess we'll get to that eventually.

Wow... my last day of school will be December 14th. It's October 7th. I guess that means I'm almost halfway through? Hooray! I can't wait for this semester to be over. On the 15th I'll sign up for next semester's classes. Next semester is probably going to be way harder than this one... But I won't have English. I do love English, but it's so demanding as a class. I'd much rather just write for fun on my own spare time. Next semester probably won't be that hard, but it will be homework-heavy. However, I don't think I'll stress out as bad. Unlike English and math, there are other classes I can take to get those credits. I don't have to take philosophy for my fine art; I have other options. That helps me calm down and remember in the toughest of times that even if I fail, I do have other options. You don't get that with English and math. Of course, I'm not worried about English.

I understand math right now... up until a certain point. The teacher skips steps and sometimes that confuses me. At least I get the majority of it. I'll look in my book later tonight and maybe on the internet during my long break before math class tomorrow so I'll hopefully know what I'm doing before our quiz. If I pass math, dad will get my Assassin's Creed III. Of course, I'll be contributing towards that with my GameStop giftcard... but still. I wish math wasn't required. I hate it so much. I feel like I should try to be more positive, but it's hard.

I have my third psychology exam on Thursday. I haven't done the study guides yet, but I should probably be fine. I did really well on the last test and the first test. CPD... I never worry. I'm a little nervous about my English essay, but I always am. I'll probably be okay.

I'm worrying about career stuff again. What am I going to college for? What's my end goal? I don't have that much more time to figure it out. I actually wouldn't mind some sort of counseling/clinical psychology... but you have to have a MA for that. I'm not going beyond my BA.

The Only Thing I Ever Talk About

A good representation of my life ever since the hell that is college began. Yesterday I sat down and worked on psychology for 3 hours. We were assigned 2 homework assignments (two chapters and 2 online worksheets to go along with them) this week. We'll only have one a week again after this. She's trying to transition the due date from Thursdays back to Tuesdays. The next stuff will be due Tuesday, so basically I'll be doing it Monday.

Today, I'll be starting my next English essay. Not this morning, though. I'll work on it on my break at school and the time I have before school since I have to get there an hour early to park. And then I'll work on it after school. I want to hopefully have an entire rough draft done for tomorrow, if possible. That isn't required, though. Tomorrow will be a work day in English. We can get other people to look over what we have so far. Yesterday I wrote a general outline of my paper. All I have to do is get it done. Like they said in high school when we were writing the senior paper, the rough draft is the core of everything. If you get that done, you just have a little bit more to do. Once the rough draft is done, you're more than halfway over with it.

I like Tuesdays and Thursdays because I can sleep in. I usually sleep in until about 8, since on the other days I have to get up at 6:45. It's nice and relaxing. I would work on my essay right now, but I want some relaxation time. I am like, 1200% done with school. Not even a break will be satisfying anymore. I just want to be straight-up done with it. I wouldn't mind if it was Centennial, but it's not. College is terrible and I have no damn clue why everyone says it's the "time of your life." Yeah, maybe it is for social party people. I don't like people. I don't like partying. I take my grades very seriously. I never go anywhere or hang out with anyone outside of class (except for Tuesday because that was Ayu Day). If the friends you make in college are the ones that stick forever, I don't think I'll have any "stuck" friends in the future. But that's fine, because the ones I have now are the only ones I care about.

I feel like I'm such a bitter person. Eh, whatever. Doesn't bother me. I just hate college and want it to be over. And cool down the god damn air outside! It's still in the 90s and it's October now!

Too School for Cool

Rarity and Sweetie Belle! This is the cutest thing I have ever seen. Anyways, it's been a few days since my last post. Today is the first day of October, and it's still hot as hell outside. How unfair! It's been fall for a month already! (No, don't tell me fall started on September 20-somethingth. No. The first day of fall was September 1st, just like how the first day of winter will be December 1st). And we got a new air conditioner. Just in time for it to hopefully cool down. Sigh.

My next essay in English will be due in a week. We talked about the format it should be in today. I guess I'll start it soon. Not today. Probably not tomorrow, either. I'll probably start it Wednesday, maybe. It shouldn't be too difficult. I do hope I get a nice grade, like my last essay. 

I have some reading for psychology to do. I understand what's going on in math, for the most part. Things are pretty good right now. I still have no social life and wish school was over, but at least we're almost halfway done. December 14th will be my last day. On October 15th, I get to sign up for next semester's classes. I just don't even want to think about school anymore. It's so sad. The only thing I have to talk about is school, because that's the only place I go, and it's the only thing I do every day besides eat, do homework at home, and, if I'm lucky, get a few minutes of video game time in or something. I wish I had more time to do stuff that I want to do. I guess it's not super important.